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Junsu’s cyworld - February 26, 2012 (updated w/ trans)

Unknowingly, it’s been a month since Father left me.
There’s no time for me to spend mourning and getting my spirits up and
just like that I spent these busy days away.
Looking back now, everything is like a dream, it’s still like a dream.
After settling father’s funeral, moving and sorting out related stuff.
Everything was my first time.
As a new father (of the household), this is the first thing that I had to do, therefore, I have to clench my teeth even more
Right now reminiscing back to the period at the funeral, to all who did not let my father feel lonely during his journey, hereby I sincerely feel thankful to all with tears.
After experiencing all this, I feel a great warmth that I never had before.
Thinking that I had to be even stronger, however, sometimes right at this moment, the great emptiness just can’t be controlled.
The sense of emptiness that is chasing behind (me), my heart will feel even emptier and silent.
On the sudden death of my father, today I’m self doubting myself, throwing away my dream.
In eight years of relentless daily life, the society becomes decadent.
Because of regret, the mind that looked back.
How should I adapt the time spent with you that had ended now?
Although, it’s cold but it’s warm as well,
Although it’s warm but cold as well.

At that time, I did not understand you.
but now I had seemed to realize that the time had come to an end.
Try to forget, those that contain precious stories.
A lot of traces still remained.
Wherever, you will always be calling out “eldest son”.
Will never forget your loud voice in my ear.
Student days, in order to prepare for exams and still learning late in the night.
Quietly came to my side and rub my shoulders with a pair of warm hands.
Childhood, taught me boxing and football, the stadium that we used to run together, was filled with the sound of our breathing.

Until a few days before you passed away, still worrying about my knee surgery.
Because of the worrying, you went to the emergency room without last words with his sons.
But now no longer, can I see you, hear you, touch you, and my heart really hurts.
After becoming an adult, saying the words “I LOVE YOU” is not easy and I’m unable to create the only memories between us.
This made my heart hurt.

I love you
I’m sorry,
Dad.

Please rest in peace.

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26 February 2012
Son, Junsu
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Translated by Kai2dayeo

Tadi ain on lambat sbb kakak ain guna , then waktu kakak ain guna ain ternampak satu mention tuk ain, lps tuh cepat2 ain suruh kakak ain bg ain on.. On je ain terus bukak mention ttbe ternamapk mention nie ——>  @itsainkb <- budak ni kalau tak bertanya sehari memang tak sah hidup dia. seorang kawan yang baik dan PERAMAH. comel dan cool person ;) 

Omg, crush ain cakap ain comell! =) semua kengkawan ain cakap untunglah crush ain ckp ain cute lagi2 dekat public! =) terlampau bangge =)  Again thanks =) 

Page 27 of 366 - My crush cakap ain comel =)  

2pmfacts:

2PM Show Ep11 : Jjampong

beastly manager juseob oppa can take it XD 

Semalam, aku tengah main bola tampar depan rumah ttbe aq dpt mesej from ain die tulis ” weyh dtg umah aku skrg.. ada kecemasan!” aku pon cepat2 lah g tgk2 die dpn umah tgh tunggu aku aq ckp lah asl die ckp ” tadi ada kucing dpn umah aku” BTW ain z takut kucing! ehh —’ kau nie gila lah kucing pon takut! apa dah.. die bengong sikit kucing pon takut sabar jela.. then kiter org g pasar malam .. waktu g jln2 kt pasar mlm aq nk beli cha kwey teow! ttbe aq ter cakap ” bang nak satu taecyeon” abang tuh terkejut n ain n ira pon terkejut after tuh kiter org pikir nama2 group 2pm yg nk dkt2 dgn nama makanan/minuman! 

Taecyeon-Cha kwey teow

wooyoung-Youngtaufu

junho-meehun

junsu-cendol

chansung-meesup

nickhun- ?

entah kiter org x dpt nak pikir nama nickhun! tp serius sepanjang g jln2 kt pasar malam tuh kiter org asyk gelak je! nnti gi lagi tau =) 

Weyh , aku tau korang mesti kecik hati bila aku cakap best friend aku yg Ain Zulaikha best friend aku! bukan dia sorang je best friend aku Syairah , Izzah , Kame korang best friend aku gak tp yg terlampau rapat dengan aku is Ain Zulaikha! so jgn lah kecik ati k? (Y)

happy birthday JunHo :3 (Y)

LAST day ain tweet n sorang budak nie! ain suka die sesanggat! tp lps tweet2 ain dpt tau yg die dh x nk cpl2 umm my heart broken badly! :( ain harap die suka ain gak tp lps dgr kengkawan ain ckp rasa suka kt die lagi bertambah! kawan2 ain ckp x mungkin die akan suka ain sbb umur beza 5 tahun! —’ sabor je la.. i just want you to know I LOVE YOU :3

supertaek:

I’ll be back era hair.